r.i.p

we might be saperated by deep seas

over 7 continens is all it is

we are connected to each other

some how we are each other.

life can be complicated at times

where people die form time to time

so tresure life as tho it was gold

you might not know when one last see gold

war is sad and so we know

maybe its time we stand up and say no

just bare with me on this

and we will all have a better life to live

my eyes are dried out and its time to sleep

tomorrow must wake up to eat

i hope u like my poem

happy birthday shu ying

im currenty lying on my bed with my laptop on my lap..snoring sound from eric could be heard loudly while..i type this nonsense on my blog..well not really nonsense la but u know..sure got abit kan..but not alot la..tu ada..
fiona just apear online..talking to her now as i type this down..thinking of going down for a fag but...malas..

ok so...today was shu yings b day..so a group of us decided to go down town to celebrate his bday..all malaysians la. and although i dont know him well and the rest of dem too...we seem to connect in some ways..its funny how life can bring us to funny places and to meet funny ppl who we din tot exsisted..i donno this is weird..i wanna go to bed now..night

I MISS HOME!!

man...i really miss home..

miss my family

miss my friends, ppl like fi, eric, praveen, mun, kow, siva, lynn, jo, zaf, kim chun etc...

miss the times when i use to come back late from ac and get some lecture from dad

miss mom's cooking

miss sako's soup..

miss going to mamak..

miss pyramid

miss pool

miss the weather

miss driving

miss my bed..my room..etc.

miss waking up feeling loved when i walk down smelling food and coffee from mom..

miss SRI ACMAR

miss BAK KUT TEH

miss my SRI ACMAR TEACHER(although i dont really like some of dem)

its 12.45pm now and ppl are still making noice outside my room...pissing a gangster off..wait la one day..hahha..i'll make dem an offer they cant refuse...hahaha..god father ma!!
well i better hit the sheets..need to wake up early tomorrow.

good night..
happy valentines..

VALENTINES DAY!

Today i was suppose to wake up at 7 but i overslept until....*TUK* *TUK* *TUK..a knock on my door..got up went to the door and saw pavan..1st thing he said to me...DEI!!!HAVEn WAKE UP R DEI..ITS 8.30 ALREADY U KNOW..den i was like what the fuck man(class starts at 9 btw)...shit dei..den i invited him in and i sat on my bed..den i realize there was something not rite...fuck man i had a headache i told pavan..so he left and ask me to rest somemore..at donno what time... eric came in..'DEI STILL SLEEPING AR????HAHAHAHAHA'..i den told him i had a headache and ask him to pass me the Panadol..took it and went back to sleep until 1pm..by den i was feeling much better and den decided to head to my economics class..as usual..dont understand anything...later in the evening.. eddson came back with a bucay*(how to spell dei) of roses..im telling u man..that guy has gut..bloody china kong fu...went to this really hot girls room and pass her the roses...pavan i and vennessa was shock..

after that..i came to my room and decided i need a fag..went down fag..came up..sleep......
*TUK* *TUK* *TUK*! it was eddison this time around...ask him to come in..talk talk talk talk talk...he fucked off..cant sleep any more..desided to go checkout fiona's blog...reading all her bullshit and ect. makes me laugh and at the same time really miss her...

Malaysia my home

Its been more than a month since i've left home...its unbelivable how much i can actually miss my home for when i had it, im always not in.
BUT most of all..i miss my family..i miss my dad, mom, sako, audrey, tuako, koko, ayon, and lucky so much!
sometimes i lay in my room and just wonder 'what are they up to rite now'..and how nice it could be if i was with dem..

some people cry...i don't...i cry inside..i may seem happy all the time making my silly jokes and making ppl mad but deep inside im just a baby boy...mom dad sako.... everybody..I MISS U ALOT AND I LOVE U WITH ALL MY LIFE!!

To my fello MALAYSIAN FRIENDS.

I MISS ALL OF U SO MUCH TOO!! people like
fiona ~who always fight with me, pyramid with me etc.many many.....
charlynn ~ who always pinch my nipples...
E.pederson ~ who always drink and eat bak kut teh with me....
siva ~ who always tani with me
praveen ~ who is always there for me...
kow ~ who i tought how to fag...
gani ~ who puke in my garden and as a result my grass died..
zafran ~ who always talk cock and with his funny lame jokes....
kim chun ~ who always play pool with me..
mun ~ who always makes the best burger for me
jo cean ~who always fag with me
eric tee ~who is in uk with me rite now
jia der&jj ~who always protected me
ETC..

EVERY ONE!!!BRANDON MISSES U ALOT!!

To Mother Earth

The water billows in, casping each other agains the tropical settings,
the wind softly blows againts the costal line trimmed with coconut palm,
luring and seducing the sense of sights but on closer scrutiny alas!,
the sence of smell and the reality sucks!,

A crow nibbles at the dead thingamajic,
zooming in i realise it was a dead chick,
at least couple of days since its untimely demise,
used condoms scattered here and there,
until one wonders if theres a factory near by.

Dead leaves doing their thing,
and hopefully by an aeon will get gas out from its process,
a sight beholds the wrath of stupidity.

Mother nature is just waiting and her patients is running thin,
when will we ever learn that we must treat the earth well,
for its is not a gift from our parents but a loan from our children.

thoes are the words of MY MOTHER~Penang, Malaysia,

LIFE!!

We all go true a cycle of birth and death..See, the moment we are born, we are already sentenced to death...Some ppl say "when we die we either go to heaven or hell"... Others say "life is eternal"... Some may even say "we are here to clear out our bad deeds, in other words clear, our bad Karma and after we do so we will go to heaven"..

Someone recently asked me...What do you think will happened to us when we die?

TO ME!!

I believe when we die we sort of go back to the universe... to me i believe we are all part of the universe and all of us are ONE .. like a single drop of water joining the sexy blue ocean.. never again will you ever get that one drop back.. merged with the ocean as ONE!

when we die we bring nothing with us...the only thing we bring with us is our karma...
and when its time for us to be reborn we will be borned and then we bring our karma from our past life along with us to the present life and we will den face all the bad things we have done in the previous life and also the good ones

To me heaven and hell does not exist after death...but its actually a state of life in our present existence.. heaven and hell exist right now, in this life... not a place where you go to after death depending on the amount of good and bad deeds you have done in your life...

Example
HELL*A member of this person's family dies in a car crash..the moment he/she hears the news...he/she state of life will drop hell...thats hell
HEAVEN* You winning a million dollars and is overcome by immense happiness!

Everyone has their own beliefs in which they trust in but whatever you do try not to do bad deeds because if you do in any way then you're in for big trouble!

An individual shapes his/her own environment. A wise man once said "If the minds of the people are impure, their land is also impure.. if the minds of the people are pure then so is their land. They are not two lands.. pure and impure in themselves. the difference lies solely on the good or evil of our minds." this means when we are bad we will attract bad people and when we are good and our lifes are pure we will attract good and pure people such as our selves...

So ppl whatever and Who ever u believe in, pls be good..because whatever bad deeds u do now the effect is around the corner to strike back at you!!!this is called KARMA.. the laws of cause and effect!!...dont hurt yourself ..if u believe in god den your punishment will come after u die..either way u will face the consequences of your actions!!!

PEACE!